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Toronto Portrait Photographer || HEARTshots || Black + White Photography

Memoirs and musings of Darius Bashar. Toronto portrait photographer and writer, in pursuit of all things real, raw and intimate. 

Late Bloomers

I started in advertising at age 27. 

I started film school at age 29. 

I started cinematography at age 30.

I started photography at age 33.

I started making guided meditations at age 37.

I started making music at age 38 (i.e. last weekend). 

In hindsight, this looks awesome. Especially now that I have a business that is stable and growing faster than ever. 

But I remember that first year out of film school. I remember very clearly that I made just over $9,000 of income for the whole year. I remember how hard I struggled. I remember all the debt I acquired trying to pay my rent with my credit cards—not a good idea

The truth is, during this time I often felt scattered, unsure and totally lost. 

I would compare myself to others who were crystal clear on what they wanted to do—terrible mistake

I now understand something really important:

My life is MY LIFE!

I don’t need to follow anyone else’s plan. 

I don’t need to compare my journey to others.  

Also, I don’t expect anyone else to understand my vision for my own life. 

And finally… I don’t need anyone else’s permission to be my fullest self.

Because it’s a journey. And we are adventurers.

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PS: If you’re at a place in your own journey where it feels murky and unclear, the best piece of advice I can give you is to find a practice or process that brings you closer to your heart. Our hearts have infinite wisdom and are therefore the greatest compass we can ask for. 

It can be as simple as taking a few deep breaths, closing your eyes, placing your hand on your chest and listening to hear if your heart has something to tell you—it almost always does