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Toronto Portrait Photographer || HEARTshots || Black + White Photography

Memoirs and musings of Darius Bashar. Toronto portrait photographer and writer, in pursuit of all things real, raw and intimate. 

Posts tagged Existentialism
Playing The Role of Darius
 

Want to have some fun this week? Instead of asking people, “How are you?” try asking them, “What’s the most interesting thing happening in your life right now?”

Don’t compare yourself to their answers or judge what they say. Instead stay open and curious.

When I think about this question, I imagine that my soul is an actor and he’s playing a role called Darius. I believe that my soul came to Earth to play this role because he wanted a thrill and to explore the richness of the human experience, including all of the emotions and even the hardships. My soul is having a blast with this art project.

When I sometimes get lost in the details or forget that this experience was supposed to be fun, I lose perspective which can quickly lead to me feeling lost and alone. My soul loves the thrill of this “method acting” and enjoys being fully immersed in the character.

So what’s the most interesting thing happening in my life right now?

I am dating someone new.

This person has a powerful way of reflecting her perspective back to me. She witnesses me. Her approach is so gentle but also so penetrating. Maybe it’s her tone. Her frequency. Her eyes. Who knows?

She’s shown me things about who I am that I’ve heard before from others, but there is something about the way she reflects that breaks through all my doubt and imposter syndrome. Her reflections wake me up to who I am and who I have always been.

She’s reminded me that this character called Darius believes in the power of truth and vulnerability. He knows that going deep and being honest—even when it’s scary—brings him closer to love and connection. It’s also challenging for him to open his heart up to others and it takes a lot for him to show up and speak his truth. This experience is an emotional rollercoaster ride, both thrilling and exciting.

It feels vulnerable sharing this with all of you, but that’s the most interesting thing happening in the life of this character called Darius.

So, my question to you is this: what’s the most interesting thing happening in the life of the character your soul is playing right now?

Big love,

D

 
 
This Is The Oldest You've Ever Been
 

You made it. You’ve never been this far.

You broke your previous record for consecutive days alive.

I asked my phone and it told me I’ve been alive for 14,683 consecutive days. That means that TODAY is officially the oldest I have ever been!

And guess what? today is also the oldest you have ever been too.

That’s a personal record.

Maybe you feel younger than you did 10 years ago, but that does not take away the fact that today is officially the greatest number of consecutive days you have ever been alive.

Take a moment to breathe that in.

Today is the oldest you have ever been.

How does it make you feel?

Each person will experience this differently. And there is no right or wrong way of feeling into that fact.

Personally, I love thinking about this. It gives me a new frame to see my life.

So many times I feel stuck or like I’m repeating patterns in life that do not serve me. But when I remember that I’ve never experienced this day before—I have never been through a March 9, 2023 before—and how it’s my first and only day like today… it can renew my energy and help get me get unstuck.

When I realize I’ve never been this many days old, and will never be again, it can turn a mundane Thursday into a personal record. It’s like a mini-birthday.

Another other fact I love to reflect on is that not everyone is lucky enough to get to 14,683 days of life. It’s a privilege and a blessing.

Holy shit, I made it this far.

How freakin cool.

Try it out for yourself. Do a quick Google search or ask Siri how many days it’s been since your birth, and take a moment to reflect on how far you have come.

Nobody knows how many days we will get in our life’s journey, but what’s for certain is that you and I made it this far.

And I think that is worthy of a celebration.

Love,

D