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Toronto Portrait Photographer || HEARTshots || Black + White Photography

Memoirs and musings of Darius Bashar. Toronto portrait photographer and writer, in pursuit of all things real, raw and intimate. 

Posts tagged Deep Thoughts
Angel of Breath
 

Sometime soon, a handsome and smiling angel will knock on your front door. This kind and gentle angel brings a gift for you.

He is the Angel of Breath and he is here to take you back home.

In a soothing voice he explains that your time on earth has come to an end and you have to leave everything behind.

All your possessions, your home, your family, even your body. You can’t take anything or anyone with you. All of it stays here.

Before you leave, the Angel will allow you to take 3 final breaths.

You can take as long as you need with these 3 last breaths, but that’s all you get.

As soon as your 3 breaths are done, you leave this planet forever.

You understand the instructions and you choose to take the deepest, longest breaths possible, to soak in as much of this human experience as you can.

As you slowly take your first deep breath in, holding it at the top of the inhale, you notice that there’s someone’s hand you’d like to hold. Without thinking, you reach out and grab the hand of the first person who comes to mind.

You take it all in.

And when you’re ready, you exhale all the way.

And once again, you breathe in as deep and as long as you can.

With this second breath, you suddenly remember all the faces you’d like to see one last time. There’s no overthinking, just allowing these faces to be seen. There may even be a few surprises.

You take it all in.

And when you are ready, you exhale all the way.

With the final inhale of your very last breath on Earth, you sense that there is something you want to give. A final word, a final smile, a moment of gratitude for anyone or anything.

You hold this deep juicy final breath as long as you can, and when it’s time, you exhale that offering out to the world, knowing that once this final breath is done, your time here has come to an end.

All of us have a last breath out there looking for us. It might find you in 50 mins or 50 years, but it will find you.

Soak it all in, before it’s too late.

And when you are ready, exhale all the way.

D

 
This Is The Oldest You've Ever Been
 

You made it. You’ve never been this far.

You broke your previous record for consecutive days alive.

I asked my phone and it told me I’ve been alive for 14,683 consecutive days. That means that TODAY is officially the oldest I have ever been!

And guess what? today is also the oldest you have ever been too.

That’s a personal record.

Maybe you feel younger than you did 10 years ago, but that does not take away the fact that today is officially the greatest number of consecutive days you have ever been alive.

Take a moment to breathe that in.

Today is the oldest you have ever been.

How does it make you feel?

Each person will experience this differently. And there is no right or wrong way of feeling into that fact.

Personally, I love thinking about this. It gives me a new frame to see my life.

So many times I feel stuck or like I’m repeating patterns in life that do not serve me. But when I remember that I’ve never experienced this day before—I have never been through a March 9, 2023 before—and how it’s my first and only day like today… it can renew my energy and help get me get unstuck.

When I realize I’ve never been this many days old, and will never be again, it can turn a mundane Thursday into a personal record. It’s like a mini-birthday.

Another other fact I love to reflect on is that not everyone is lucky enough to get to 14,683 days of life. It’s a privilege and a blessing.

Holy shit, I made it this far.

How freakin cool.

Try it out for yourself. Do a quick Google search or ask Siri how many days it’s been since your birth, and take a moment to reflect on how far you have come.

Nobody knows how many days we will get in our life’s journey, but what’s for certain is that you and I made it this far.

And I think that is worthy of a celebration.

Love,

D