Eileen

Literally seconds after I photographed Isaac, I noticed Eileen sitting on a bench a few feet away. She was smoking a cigarette and looked very deep in thought. For a moment, I considered walking past because I didn’t want to bother her.

And to be honest, I feel much more shy approaching women.

I am aware that as a man who is a stranger, approaching a woman can be intimidating for them. So I make extra effort to act respectfully and leave lots of room for people to say no.

I believe there is a way to do this with respect that ensures all people—but particularly women—are honoured.

I do not want to “steal a photo” or force someone to be a part of this art project.

I’m sure there will be times I mess up, but I am committed to learning and growing as a human and an artist with each encounter.

But there’s another reason I feel shy. And that’s because it hits harder when a woman says no.

I think it’s because when I was in my 20s, there were many women I wanted to say hi to, but didn’t.

Instead of talking to women, I would play out the interaction in my mind and convince myself it would end in a shutdown. I didn’t want to face this imaginary rejection, so I mostly chickened out.

And I still hold this fear of rejection in my body.

It makes me wonder... How much are we holding on to that is weighing us down, that isn’t even based on reality? That’s based on our imagination playing out worst case scenarios?

My goal here is to reflect on this part of myself with love and compassion and see if there is something I am finally ready to let go of.

I want to continue to showcase women and share their stories through this project. And to do that I will need to continually find more empathy and courage.

Love,

PS: If you are interested in working together I have a great promo for the summer. Send me a DM and I’ll send you the details.

PPS: If you want to see the behind the scenes video of me approaching Eileen and taking these photos, check out my Instagram or my TikTok.